Thoughts: Little Fight With Mum

Sorry I did not blog yesterday... Mainly because I did not have nothing much to blog about... Just that my driving lesson went alright. Also the picture is one of my proudest pics... Its of a cherry blossom tree (a.k.a. sakura tree) in front of one of the uni buildings (Foster building)...

Today I had a short but 'intense' fight with my mum... It started when my cousin was trying to teach me how to solve cubes... Then my mum said that I never really had any interest is such things as my attention span is quite short (known in Chinese as, 三分钟热度). The only thing I really had any interest in and paid attention to is C.S.I. I thought at that time she would say something like arts and craft but no, she had to say a TV series, which by the way, is not my absolute fave right now...

She always told me to say positive things to other people so to boost my confidence. However, she broke that rule by telling other people that I only like watching TV. Which made me sounds like a useless girl... Why does she say that when she knows I'm sensitive to those kinda things? Anyway, I told my mum my thoughts as we go into the car and she said the next time she would not say anything or any comments any more. That really sounded like something she said out of anger and I do not like that!

She then told me she would be more like dad, not saying anything and always keeping any words inside. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? I liked the way that my mum tells us anything so we (me and by brother) can change and become a better person through her experience! But if she doesn't say anything, how am I suppose to learn. The main reason why I told her about my thoughts was to understand why she broke that rule. Then she told me that its a joke and it doesn't have anything to do with my future and possibilities! So, OK, I understood that and I want her to say anything she wants! But she still stuck to her idea so that there would not be any arguments in the house.

Sigh... I feel so useless as a daughter 'cus I made my mum change herself in order to suit me. It should be me that changes to suit her! Next time, no more comments on her comments, I'll try that out... Can't promise that I can keep it but I can try!