Thoughts: Flower of the Heart

Remember the story that I wrote up couple of blogs ago? Apparently someone stole my idea... Kiddin... There is this taiwanese soapy TV series named 桃花小妹 or Momo Love (or something like that) which focuses on one ditsy/clumsy girl with 4 older and over protective brothers and her love for a certain young man. Different from my story is that my character is stronger and determined with her life. Also, both my character and the character in the TV series know a little martial arts...

The other story that I have in mind is this: (I dunno what name should I give it yet, but i'm settling with one for now...)

Will You Love Me?/Love the boss! 你会爱我吗？/商业大楼

Its based on one woman who is successful with her work and business but unsuccessful with her love life. She then sacrifices her love for the man she loves when he needs to take care of a certain someone... I have a couple of story lines planed out, the numbering shows the sequence of the story lines in the story...

1) A young good looking and confident young man walks into a pub and attracts attention of several females. He walks, with a well paced strut to a table hosting a group of young man and a table covered with alcoholic beverages. He showed his widest grin and greets his friends. They, had started without him for he was late, thus in their drunken state, dared the confident young man to kiss a woman.

After swallowing a shot, he said no problem... But the catch is, not any female. They pointed to a woman slumped over the bar with couple of glasses surrounding her broad frame. She was with a pregnant friend and was drinking at the bar before the handsome man came in. She in her drunken stupor shouted and cried to her friend, who was franticly trying to calm her down in order to avoid too much attention. When the young man came in, the pregnant friend went to the bathroom.

The young man, feeling very confident after couple of shots, went up to the drunk women to 'talk'. He pulled on his best 'charm' smile and patted her shoulder. The women looked up, showing a mascaraed and alcohol ruined face, there was nothing pretty with this women. He gave up and just looked into her eyes. What surprised him was that the eyes were filled with melancholy and pure sadness. He managed to talk with her and got her to kiss him. When his friends came over to congratulate him on winning the bet, he saw the pain in her eyes before walking away.

2) Very next day, the young man started work in a new building where he applied for assistant manager of a department of one of the biggest company in the country. As he arrived, he was greeted by various and interesting people. He was told that the manager would arrive in a few minutes and she would like everyone to be ready in the conference room. The secretary who guided him around the place and introducing him to everyone was very pretty. The young man was ready to pursue her with his charm and met a wall as she turned out to be a iced beauty.

Without warning, the conference room barged open and in came a women in tracksuit, tied up hair and sunglasses. She was carrying various packages and settled everything down with a pant. She then takes off her glasses and started rubbing her temples. Looking up, she took in everyone's presence, including the new guy. She immediately stood up and said, the jackass guy from yesterday who kissed be just for a dare. Then the young man realised, the ugly broad from yesterday was his boss... dun,dun...

3) Being young, successful and female proved to be very hard in such a large company. Being on friendly terms with the CEO and head of the company complicates matter. However, from the young man's eyes, he saw a determined, smart and beautiful woman doing a man's job, and on the less, doing a great job. The other green eyed managers of other departments of the company tries many times to disrupt the woman's career path but proved to be either too dumb or too full of themselves to realise this woman's potential.

4) The young secretary proves to be a hard catch for the young man but as time pass, the young secretary warms up to the young man. However, before anything serious started, the young man had started falling for his hard working boss. The secretary who was used to getting any guy she wants, failed miserably on getting the young man back as he confesses to her that he has fallen for his boss. She, unwilling to accept the truth thought if she disrupts her boss's work in the department, she could, per chance win the young man back. However, her action lead to serious consequences.

5) The boss manages patch things up and got the department back on their feet. Her mistake in handling the department was held firmly by other managers as leverage to weaken her status in the company. The secretary felt guilty for what she did and tries to make things strait with the head of the forces against her boss. With her beauty and looks, the other manager decided that the secretary was to accompany him one night with hints of other 'needs'. The secretary took on the request in hope to patch up her mistakes.

Learning about what the secretary was about to do. The boss decided the secretary has done enough damage and steps in to stop the deal between her secretary and the perverted manager. The manager threatened to expose the deal that the secretary did to disrupt the boss's department to the company head. Hearing what the secretary did, the boss lady felt betrayed and heartbroken. She trusted everything to the secretary and was ready to promote her as a permanent member in her department.

The boss lady did not want to lose such potential for the company to a pervert and made a promise to the perverted manager. She will quit. The manager was pleased but was still not satisfied. He poured wine over the kneeling figure of the boss lady and took a picture. The secretary was crying and the boss lady drove her home. The next day, the boss lady quit, leaving the young man as manager of department and the secretary as assistant manager.

*I'm inclined to leave things like this but I decided to add a little more 'romantic' element

6) Time passed as they did not hear more from the boss lady. The young man decided to visit the boss lady and arrived in front of a posh apartment. He knocked on the door and was invited in by a freshly showered ex-boss (of course wearing clothes, just wet hair and towel round neck). He talked to the boss and found out that his ex-boss was actually a major share holder of the company inherited through her deceased grandfather. She did not want to live a life pampered by money she did not work for. So she talked to the CEO and head of the company to let her work from bottom to the top. She, being smart and talented soon got to her position through hard work and modesty. Of course she was upset that she had to throw everything away for a woman's tantrum, but she was happy because she knows the department is in good hands. The young man kissed her and promised that he will not hurt her and loves her.

7) Over time, their relationship grew, the boss lady would visit the department from time to time to offer advises and look over things. The perverted manager was demoted after a video was sent to the company head showing various sexual advances he prays on his employees. The secretary was still upset and not handling things well. She became weaker and weaker and finally collapsed during work and was sent to the hospital by the young man. She then talked to the doctors at the hospital to convince the young man that she has a serious disease. She begged the young man to stay by her side to take care of her, as her dyeing wish. The young man obeyed, breaking things up with the boss lady.

Hurt and confused, the boss lady visits the secretary and found out that her disease was not fatal. The boss lady walked off and sets up a meeting with the young man. In that meeting she told him that through out her time in the company, she learnt not to trust anyone, not to say to love anyone. She opened her heart to let the young man in just to have the young man break it again. She could not handle it and she wants to officially break things off and she will be going to another country. The young man begs for the boss lady to wait, give him some time. She then told him that this is not the first time he had hurt her. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

I haven't thought of a good finale yet... Will do so when I thought of it.

Life: Running out of Ideas

Like the title... I've run out of ideas on what to write...

I skipped yesterday cus there wasn't much to write... also I was very hooked onto Tactics fanfiction... Also i started looking up Saiyuki fanfictions...

Oh.... I dunno... Sigh...

Oh, this was a... dunno how to call it... a dough doll? made out of stapler bullets and 'blue' tacks... It looks pink because I added red colouring into it. Also I started looking up manga drawing tutorials... Hope I can get the 'ol juice back... ;)

Life: Just another day

Nothing much today, again... Went to work at aunt's place... Watched a bit of TV... Wondered how many Korean pop groups are there and how long are they going to last? What I see is that those people doesn't last long in the current market because consumers like us goes through them too fast and "furious"... lame...

Just to say, my favourite is super junior... Because of their wide variation of people in their group (thirteen to be exact), they are widely popular amongst young girls (not excluding me, hehe...). After their large and surprising succession, Korea immediately supports another uprising pop group of youngsters... Sigh... People and their need to be popular and recognised...

Anyways... no driving this week because the driving "place" is taken over by JPJ... Hope I won't muck up next week, after two weeks of not driving...

Life: Future in Flinders

Today I went to see Miss Yii, my consultant on universities. She told me that my offer was actually unconditional, which was surprising because I did not know that and glad too... Then nothing much, she told us (me and my mum) more things bout attending school there and various other infos needed to apply PR and stuff... Thats all for today... and I'm reading Death Note fanfiction (Light/L are my fave couple)...

Life: Sorry I missed out yesterday's blog...

Well... yesterday was nothing much... Went out with brother to buy Natalie's birthday present... Bought 9, Public Enemies, G.I. Joe... Watched Public Enemies that night... It was alright... Wasn't was good as it could... The girl wasn't pretty enough (though she reminded me of Katy Perry)... Jonny Depp's acting is still good... Christian Bale is good too... To tell the truth, I found Christian Bale's acting more convincing that Jonny's dunno why....

Today nothing much too... Going to pay for tuition for Flinders tomorrow, hope everything goes well...

Life: Niah Trip

Coming back from the trip really tires me, physically... Lots of stairs to walk, lots of slippery surfaces to be careful of. Worst of all, the shoe (which was suppose to be mum's) which I wore was real crappy as the sole came off as i was walking OUT of the cave. Thank goodness I did not walk further in 'cus it would just cause more harm if the sole came off as I walk IN the cave...

As i'm tired, i'm just ganna post on some pics.

Thoughts: Anime - Kara no Kyoukai

Currently (this afternoon, to be more exact), I'm hooked onto a new anime, Kara no Kyoukai.

This anime is by the same producers as Fate/Stay night and Tsukihime, they are also known as the type-moon series. I've watched both of them. Then i realised that most of the characters in Kara no Kyoukai are based on the characters in Tsukihime. Through reading Wikipedia, I now know that this anime is actually a doujin series based on Tsukihime. This really got me thinking... If doujin stories gets a chance to become animated... I wish that all the stories in my head could be processed... sigh....

Anywayz, a new update on my life... Will be travelling to the Niah cave tomorrow... I am told to bring dozens of things... How am I suppose to bring them??? Oh well, see how things go, will update when i get back!

Life: Round (dinner) table talks

Today we have one of those round the table talks and finally managed to figure out what has been going on and bothering brother... Donno whether i should talk about his problems here but just to say, i'm glad that he talked and we all helped a bit.

I remembered most from the conversation is that i voiced out my opinion on what decision to make and do. What i think is that people should not do certain things just because they are afraid of the outcome or are afraid to get hurt. I just think that all is just a part of life and no one should be afraid or avoid a decision just because they don't what to get hurt.

I sort of coined this from one of xxxholic's written story, or light novel. The story talked about a women whom is afraid to make major decisions in her life because she is afraid of the consequences. She even went all the way to avoid a presentation knowing she would be promoted by jumping into traffic and got hurt. In a deeper level, she is not willing to make sacrifice or hard work to gain happiness. Strange uh?

Anyways, as i usually post up a picture for every blog i made. I decided to post this picture cus i just got it out of my phone camera. I call it, "Peacock and the Harley", beauty and the beast.

Life: New Camera!

I got my new camera! Its a Olympus FE4010. Its great! Though its quality may not be as good as the Canon one that my dad has... but its good enough.

Also i got a plant in my room... my mum gave it to me cus she has enough around the house to give some to me! Here are some pictures of my plant with my new cam!

Thoughts: Nasrudin's stories

Earlier today, I had absolutely no idea what to write for my blog. Then as I was reading through a book on 'eloquence' (which I had absolutely no idea what it meant until I looked up 口才in english)... I saw this story on Nasrudin's story which meant something to me.

When I was a kid, my mum bought me books on Nasrudin's legacy and stories. In Chinese, he is also known as 阿凡提. A man with great wisdom, intellect and a quick mouth. This is one of his stories.

Patriotism and Money (正义与金钱):

One day, the King asked Nasrudin to his palace and asked him a question, "If you have, in front of you money and patriotism, which would you chose?"

Nasrudin answered "I chose money."

The king asked with a smirk "What is so important about money? Patriotism is more important to me. I'm not like you, who is only filled with thoughts about money."

Then Nasrudin answered with pride "Those whom lacks what they need, wants what they need. What you want, is what you lack!"

This mean a lot because it is very true. Like how i want someone to recognise my talents or just plain ol' me, but i do not get that. I can't say i have a lot of money but that is just not what i want...

Thoughts: Anime or Manga stories

Being a fan of animes and mangas, i often find myself thinking about stories and fan fiction of my own. They never really get the chance of getting written down because either i never got the chance or i just couldn't be bothered... I told a close friend of mine of the stories i have in my mind and she finds them good story line but not enough drama...

Flower of the heart:

This is about a girl with a heart condition. She would go to school like any other girl and tries to life a normal life. The dramatical thing is that she was bought up in western countries, thus a lot of girls in her class treats her differently or is jealous of her background. She manages to find some friends and went on with her life. She has three other brothers and her parents are dead.

Her heart condition was caused by a road accident which also caused her parents death. The story is that her parents and her was on their way to watch the second brother's football match when the accident happened. Her first brother was old enough to drive, so he drove both his second and youngest brothers to the match first. So on hearing their parent's accident, they rush to the hospital (after the match) to find that only their sister survived. Hence forth, the three brothers decided to move back home (some place in asia, probly taiwan or japan...).

The eldest brother went on to become a successful doctor and aimed to become a specialist in cardiology (heart). The second brother abandoned his dream of becoming a football player to step into his father's footstep as a successful businessman. The third brother became a baseball player and was rarely home (because he couldn't face his family?). The youngest girl studied high school and faces various problems in life which is just too short for her.

I wanted this story to be about how a girl whom realised that her life is shorter then other and how she deals with it. Instead of being depressed, I wanted her to fill her life and others around her with happiness and gratitude. I want her to be cheerful and tires to live her life to the fullest despite all what has happen to her...

I have other stories which i will put on when i'm as bored as today... The below picture is a copy and paste... Not taken by me...

Life: Out with aunties

Couple a days ago, my mum's sister came from Sibu to visit and celebrate my mum's oldest sister's birthday... She was meant to be a surprise to my aunt. The dinner went well and today my brother invited both aunts for a steamboat dinner...

My brother has a lot of problems... and most of the time, he prefers to hide it and not talk about it. The problem is that when he does that, the atmosphere tends to drop below 0 degree Celsius... His mood some times get better after talking to mum, but some times it doesn't work... Apparently his friends are making him into a bad per

son by talking behind his back... Knowing my brother, he does not know how to handle that... Thus his bad mood... Dunno why people would wanna talk behind his back... he's just such a nice guy... sigh... people... hard to predict...

This picture I drew a long time ago. I really liked it 'cus its just cool... Anyways, I've just posted up my Leeds picture yesterday, no one has gone through it, except for Sam, 'cus she was tagged in the pics....

Thoughts: Lyrics - The Killers "Human"

I did my best to notice
when the call came down the line
up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
and sometimes I get nervous
when I see an open door

close your eyes, clear your heart

cut the cord
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

pay my respects to grace and virtue
send my condolences to good
give my regards to soul and romance
they always did the best they could
and so long to devotion, you taught me everything I know
wave good bye, wish me well

you gotta let me go
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

will your system be alright
when you dream of home tonight
there is no message were receiving
let me know is your heart still beating

are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees looking for the answer

you've gotta let me know
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees looking for the answer
are we human
or are we dancer

are we human or are we dancer

are we human or are we dancer

My brother loves this song and i didn't understand why. 'cus usually my bro isn't exactly "into" this kind of music and especially The Killers. Then i heard him say that the lyrics was good, so i went online to look for it. I came across this version in Youtube explaining each phrase and what it means... It was pretty good...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2vGiAyAWvE

The person who posted their own interpretation said that the lyric is referring to puppets. The second line "when the call came down the line" referees to the fact that puppets "dance" according to the strings which controls them. The link I posted links to the Youtube video which provides the explanation through the person's point of view.

In that interpretation of the lyric is trying to say that this "generation" of people are afraid to have individuality because they might not be able to fit in the social circle. Thus people follow the "string" in hope to be accepted. I found this to be, sadly, very true. People from my parents' generation allows everyone to have their own "soul", but nowadays people have to change to fit into society. Thus the many "faces" or different personality they present around different people. However, as I write this, I find it hard to imagine showing my true personality in society. I truly wonder, what happened to our world?

Life: Driving and cameras

Today i drove on the road, even though it was just yesterday that i first started driving... my constructor told me that i did not handle well around the corners... Hopefully the next time i start driving, i could handle things better... Cross my fingers...

The camera I decided to buy is the Olympus FE-4010...

699RM, 4X zoom, 12 megapixels, lithium batteries, free 8GB memory disk... I hope dad could find it in KL...

Life: First driving lesson and travel

Today, it was my first driving lesson... I would like to think that i did well... at least i din't crash or stall the car... there was, however a couple of times i couldn't steer the car well... hehe... Tomorrow i will be driving on the road... Wonder how i would i perform there... I seriously think i won't do too well... Will see...

Today at dinner, dad revealed his plans for the year end vacation. Its ganna take place in 贵林, China. Saw a couple of pictures and think that it was a beautiful place. Then i told my dad that i have one condition, and that is the camera is for me to carry... Then my mum told me that i should have my own camera cus we will be travelling with a agency, so we probably won't have much time. So if i am to take "artistic" pictures, i will take longer time blah, blah, blah...

So now i'm researching on what cameras i should buy. My budget is around 600-800RM. These are my findings...

I am considering the two major camera companies, Canon and Olympus. Canon was simpler cus it gave me the price comparison immediately... but Olympus??? it doesn't bloody gimme the price!!!

RM649, 12.7 megapixels, 3X zoom, facial recognition...

RM699, 10 megapixels, 4X zoom and many more "other stuff" then the Olympus... Looks defiantly cuter...

As i was browsing... I found that i forgot to include Nikon! Which, again is hard to find their prices!!!

Nikon is shit. 598RM ( the most reasonable price cus otherwise its 788RM!) 8 megapixel and 3X zoom... I guess Nikon is better for the cameras with BIG lenses???

Here's a Sony

699RM, 3X zoom, 10 megapixels, better ISO?

Oh... I donno which to chose... sigh...

Me and My Drawings...

Well, when i first started this blog... I thought i would have tonnes to things to talk about... But apparently not... So I thought I should just post up couple of my drawings that i made on my art book during my days in ABA (my school in oman).

This was one of my favourite piece, i remember that it was a piece that my teacher asked all of the students to do, as an idea for a mural on one of the walls in the classroom. I liked it because it is colourful and it represents art from my point of view.

This was another piece of drawing where our teacher asked us to draw things that we like and put them in one drawing. I like dancing, snoopy, cute animals and art (written in Chinese calligraphy).

In this, our teacher told us to make drawings of chocolates with different mediums. This is basically a Twix chocolate with pieces of magazine cut outs. Took me a long time cus its hard to find gold colour magazine pictures.

This is also one of my favourite piece. Our teacher told us to draw things that we like. I chose birds because i've always love birds. This picture is a water painting of a Kingfisher and the bottom one is a pencil colour of a Woodpecker.

Life: Blogging + drawings...

I've been bloging for nearly two weeks now and i'm running out of topics to write about...

At first i promised myself that i would write up blogs everyday but i have to admit... i've skipped two days of blog... both days i did not do much, and both days i was busy reading fanfiction... i found myself deep into the world of fanfiction... My imagination just went wild after reading any fanfic... i have so many stories in my mind but i just couldn't sit down and finish one... sigh... hopeless i am...

Did i mention i love animes? I drew a couple of designs myself...

The top one i drew more then one year ago... That was when i had so many spare time that i kept perfecting my skills of drawing manga... Then after one year, my drawing skills drop to this.

This is NOT the best but it was what i conjured up, as well as i could... Just could never get the expression right. I tried my best with the first drawing to draw a "cocky" expression but got nothing. Tried to draw sad expression with the second and still got nothing... I just wish that the sea flight stuff could arrive sooner so i can get some stationary to help with my drawings... sigh...

Thoughts: Lyrics - 陈奕迅 “婚礼的祝福”

自从我听了多首Eason得歌，我觉得这是其中歌词写的最好的一首歌。以下是歌词：

时间一分一秒，倒数计时；往事一幕一幕，突然静止；

你挽着他，他挽着你，向我走过来；同桌的人蜂涌而上，将你我隔开；
我干杯，你随意，这是个残酷的喜剧，我的人生早就留在你那里，我却还要故作潇洒地；
你和他，我和你，这是个讽刺的交集，是你太残忍还是我太认真，你要我来就真得出席；
我的请帖是你的喜帖，你要的一切如今都变成我的心碎，你总是太清醒，我始终喝不醉，连祝福你还逼我给；
你的喜帖是我的请帖，你邀我举杯我只能回敬我的崩溃，在场的都知道，你我曾那么好，如今整颗心都碎了，你还要我微笑

听了这首歌，真的让我感受到心痛的感觉，就如陈小春的“我的爱人”。特别这歌里的那句“你总是太清醒，我始终喝不醉，连祝福你还逼我给” 那一句我听了就觉得很心碎。

还有“同桌的人蜂涌而上，将你我隔开” 这句却让我想起陈小春的另一首歌“一定要幸福” （如果要知道为什么，改次再说！)

陈奕迅是一个我很喜欢和敬佩的歌手。他的歌伎和人格都很有特色，所以我很喜欢他的歌。我第一次听到他的歌是大约七年前，那首“你的背包”。他那一张 “Special Thanks To..."的专辑对我来讲是特别有意义的。应为那个时候我在噢满（Oman)。那时是我平生第一次在国外长住。在一个人生地不熟的地方，找到一个让我有一点亲切感的东西就是那张专辑。还有我觉得很特别惊讶因为我没想到在那种地方会找到华文专辑！

到现在我仍然有他那一张专辑。那张专辑里有好几首好听的歌。不用说“你的背包”，那是一首所有听华文歌的人都知道的歌。专辑里还有“想哭”，“男人的错”，“谢谢浓”，“你会不会”和很多。。。所以我在这里声明，陈奕迅，加油！！！

Life: Super bored saturday (SBS)

Firstly, SBS sounds like a koren TV channel...

Right... today, nothing much... woke up late... ate noodle (which was meant for breakfast)... went out with mum to book sale... brother in bad mood, don't ask much... etc... etc...

Sigh... i could write more... but just can't be bothered...

Life: Uni choises...

Today i received the news that university of Flinders accepted me to study the course bachelor of nursing (graduate entry). I am of course very happy and relived because I was getting afraid that i would end up with only one choice.

Now i'm just waiting to hear from university of sydney for my master of nursing (graduate entry) application...

I'm sort of torn in between these two courses because a master degree definitely looks better in my resume. But Flinders just sounds like a nice small place... not too sure whether i like the hustle and bustle of Sydney. Also uni of Sydney if definitely more expensive. The qualification and application process of Flinders is so complicated that it made me scared that the courses are ganna be hard...

I have absolutely no idea what to do... except i will wait for the Sydney reply before i have any choices...

Oh... I should be learning to drive next week.. Have to say i'm scared and sorta looking forward to it.... hehe...

Thoughts: News - Wasp sting kills three, comatose one

The newest and most talked about news in my house is about the wasp sting which killed three children and their mum in comatose...

On 3rd of october, which was the day of the mooncake festival, a family of 5 was taking a walk down a familar path after just celebrated the festival was stung by numerous wasp and was sent to the hospital immediately. Three children of 3 yrs old, 6 yrs old and 8 yrs old followed their mum (29) and their uncle (mum's younger brother, 11) stung by numerous wasp was in critical condition when sent to the hospital.

The younger two children died after couple of treatments in the hospital. The 11 yr old child is alive and recovering, this was because he ran away after immediately attacked by the wasps. The 8 yr old child died today. Leaving their mum in comatose. The youngest child, after being stung by the wasps stood on the spot and was crying. The mother who was running away immediately turned back to safe her child. The picture above was the picture of the youngest child.

The father of the children fainted after hearing the news which his last surviving child died. The now recoveing 11yr old would still have memories of this incident haunt him every mooncake festival. A festival which young children should be carrying lanterns and eating mooncakes, instead of killed by wasps. It was rumoured that the wasp nests (there were more then one nest at that location) was reported to officials before the incident but looked pass because "they haven't stung anyone yet". Also, couple of naughty kids around the area threw stones at the nest which resulted in angry wasps. Sadly, the wasps took their revenge on the wrong people...

http://www.mysinchew.com/node/29923

That really made me think, would it been different if the people attacked were malay? Would this news affect the whole of malaysia instead of JUST east malaysia if the victims were malays? Call me paranoid or prejudice that i think like this... But i just couldn't help thinking things this way... sigh... Maybe i think too much...

Life: Buffet Branch

Went with my mum for a buffet branch today... the food was great... i've forgotten how nice it is to eat buffet in malaysia... Did i mention? the food was GREAT!!!

Just wrote a letter to my friend in UK, Tanya... Hopefully, the letter could be sent by tomorrow and she should be able to receive it within the week...

Suppose to learn driving next week... i wonder who the instructor is, whether he is nice and whether i can learn driving quick... I dun dink so cus my hand eye coordination is slow... sigh...

Just finished watching the season 5 finale of CSI:NY... Now buffering the 1st epi of the 6th season... i just wanna know... does that hurt??? hehe...

Anywayz... just thought i add a random pic... I drew this, and it is my own creation... no copyright...

I know, i know, its blurry... What can i do? I took it with my camera!!!

Thoughts: Lyrics - Katy Perry "Mannequin"

When I first heard this song, I really like the main chorus its interesting

I wanna hit you just to see if you cry

I keep knocking on wood

Hoping there's a real boy inside...

'Cause you're not a man

You're just a mannequin

I wish you could feel

That my love is real

But your not a man

Then when I really listen to the whole song and looked up the lyrics, it turned out to be quite different then what i thought initially...

If the past is the problem my future could solve them baby

I could bring you alive

If you let me inside baby

It'll Hurt

But in the end

You'll be a man..

This the part that i heard through the song and i thought that its real nice... Its trying to say that the man that she loves locks himself in or became a mannequin cus he doesnt want to be hurt. But she is saying that she could help, it may hurt but its worth it. Then i looked up the lyrics...

How do I get closer to you?

When you keep it all on mute

How will I know the right way to love you?

Usually the queen of figuring out

Breaking down a man is no work out

but I have no clue

How to get through to you

Here I think shes saying that she usually have a way with boys/guys... but meeting him, it just seemed like his a mannequin, cus after this part is the chorus, which is the first part of the lyrics i posted. This part is not the chorus...

I wish I could just turn you on

with a battery and make you talk

even pull a string

for you to say anything

But with you there is no guarantee

only expired warranty

a bunch of broken parts

and I can't seem to find your heart

This part, she is just frustrated with him cus he just won't open up... but she still wants him to open up, hence the part 'I can't seem to find your heart'...

I think this whole song has deeper meaning if you read/listen to other then its lyrics... I personally think that katy perry is a great artist... you go gurl!!!! oh and i love her costume in "thinking of you"...

Life: nothing much sunday (NMS)

Just as the title said, nothing much today... First dad planed that we go on visiting his colleagues for Hari Raya. Then bro decided not to go... so i thought i dun wanna go too... so the whole family ended up at home... sigh...

I found the Bob Dylan movie that i saw some time ago... now downloading... can't wait for season 3 of supernatural to finish downloading... the photoshop i downloaded turned out to be a bust cus i could'nt use the programme as a certain serial number is needed... sigh...

Took a couple of pics as i was bored...

ok as seen, pic of my mp3, i chose this mp3 cus i have used zen micro before and this is a cuter version. I chose white cus i dunno... just liked it i guess... other bright colours are just a bit too... erm... obvious?

Pic of my phone and accessory... In this pic, the phone is out of focus and the accessory is clear.

In this pic, the accessory is out of focus but the phone is clear. I like the previous version better... dunno, more "artistic" i guess...?

Life: Fireworks

I was so caught up with a fanfiction that i forgot that i have a blog to fill up. hehe...

Today was fun... not much excitement... got bitten by mosquitoes... not nice...

This pic is of the ppl i hang out with... think they did not like to join in with the trio (bro included) who was so busy with the fireworks... think they are afraid to be caught...

This shot was quite a surprising shot as i did not planed it to end up this way... i just used the "fireworks' option in the cam... turned out to be quite good... i think...

Life: BBQ with friends

Just came back from a night with my brothers friends, which i would like to consider as my friends as well... cus it will be easier to explain... lol...

Right, it was a small BBQ night, to celebrate the moon cake festival. Funny enough, i never quite liked moon cakes... too sweet, to my liking...

We had a good time, good laugh, good food, good card games, though i wasn't very good in it though... hehe...

Plus today, my cousin and a kid had a verbal fight. I thought that my cousin (3 yrs younger then me) would know better then letting a kid get to him... which caused his mum to fire up... which is very rare...

Thought: how would it be like to open a restaurant which focuses on cooking all sorts of noodle foods??? like chow mien, mee kolok, bee hoon soup, ramen, soba, spaghetti, pasta and all other forms of long and thin flour based carbohydrates... lol... just a thought...

I came home late, and my parents switch off the internet, oh bother... oh and i'm downloading adobe photo shop. Hope i still know how to use it...

Thoughts: CSI

Well, last night I watched the 2nd season of CSI and I found it... nice... I dunno why but i just found the new seasons... kinda hard to watch, especially the fact that Warrick died... The new CSI is just generally more dark then the old one's. The earlier seasons have Greg joking around and its fun watching goofing off. But now? With the actor of morpheus (matrix) as the lead... dunno, its just weird... From my brother, he said that morpheus is better then Grissom??? really dunno... Now I find myself changing the channel whenever the old CSI epi's are on AXN. I guess I better stick to it to know why??

My current favorite CSI franchise is New York. Dun really like Miami (no offense to any Miami fans out there), cus I'm not a big fan of Horatio... I bought the Miami (pirated) DVDs cus i like watching Tim Speedle cus he's cool, cute and funny, thou a bit rough round the edges...

Right, on to CSI:NY, the main reason why I am fascinated with CSI:NY is because of mainly two reasons... Danny Messer is cute cute cute!!!

The second reason is Gary Sinise is a great actor!! His portrayal of Mac Taylor is to the spot. hum... now i'm wondering why i dint buy their DVDs, oh i know, i got most of them downloaded... hehe... sorry...

I personally think that each good tv series need at least one good actor. CSI had William Peterson and has Marg Helgenburger, and with Lawrence Fishburne??? Oh, and another reason why i liked CSI was Greg Sanders as the "clown" of the show.Miami used to have Rory Cochrane, but the writers killed him off... why???And NY, no doubt Gary Sinise is the best, along with others like Carmine Giovinazzo (danny), Anna Belknap (lindsay), Vanessa Ferlito (aiden, also a good actress, sad shes gone), Eddie Cahill (flack, another "main point" of the show...) and AJ Buckley (adam, funny guy). this is the only time i actually spend some time looking up the actors name... hehe...

oh did i mention, a good tv series also needs a comic relief, or a clown... the funny person... for example...

NCIS - Tony DiNozzo (cute and funny, the "main point" of the show for me... lol...)

Chuck - Chuck Bartowski (of course, love his facial expressions... so cute)

Leverage - Parker (funny gurl... jus started watching this show...)

Supernatural - Dean Winchester (Sam can be funny too... sometimes...)

will add more when i remember...

anywayz, tats all for now... will continue more... on thoughts...